Thoughts

I love you. Thank you. I'm sorry. Happy New Year!

Dear Nara,

This past month has been a little crazy, but first. Happy New Year!

I'm sorry it's been so long since I've written in here. It's been over a year. Oy!
So much has happened. So much has changed that I'm overwhelmed by the desire to try to recap it all, but I really want to try, so let me start with present day and work backwards.

Today is/was the first day of 2013. I hope and pray that it will be wonderful for you and our family. Seeing you happy makes things wonderful for me. It really does.

You've been so very patient the last few weeks. Daddy's been sick for about a month. He started to feel really sick on Dec. 6th, and he started to feel really bad, so he went into the hospital on 12/16 and was there for 11 days...through Christmas! You began having some sympathy pains and caught your FIRST cold virus on 12/18. You woke up at around 12:30am crying, and it didn't sound like your usual cry, so I went in your room, and you were so hot. I took your temperature, and you had a fever of 103º. If you had been sick before, I would have known that it's not that big a deal, and what's most important is the number of days you have a high fever (3+ days is when you need to see a doctor). Anyway, I also thought it was related to daddy's sickness, so I got scared and called your doctor's office. The recording said that the office was closed but if it was an emergency, hang up and dial 911. I didn't even wait to hear the rest of the recording which would have connected me with the doctor on call. I hung up and dialed 911 and the EMT was here, and we were taken in an ambulance to Beth Israel's ER. The nurse saw you and took your temperature which had gone down to 101.4 probably because of the baby tylenol and cold towel that I gave you. We were supposed to wait for the doctor, but after an hour and a half, you had fallen asleep in my arms, and I didn't want you to catch something there, so I brought you back home. We went in to see your doctor the next day and found out that it was a cold virus. I want to say 'thank you' and 'i'm sorry' for not taking care of you better during your first cold. I was going between you and daddy, and I really wanted to be there every moment to help you get through your first cold. Nonni and puppa ended up coming down here to see daddy and stayed for 5 days which really helped me be with you more. Daddy came home on 12/26, but he's not completely well, so he hasn't been able to play with you which I'm sure is very confusing to you. On the 26th, we had a little mini Christmas where we opened gifts...actually you were the only one who had gifts to open! We got you this big cardboard house that you love! It's way too big for our tiny apartment, but seeing how much you like it makes me feel like it's perfect for our apartment. Plus, it's slowly falling apart because you're not being the most careful with it, but what do we expect? You're 21 months old! :)

Speaking of 21 months old, what happened to the entries after you turned 8 months old?? That's a lot of missing months in your life. Lots of milestones. Your 1st birthday. Your first steps. Your first words. Your first LOTS of things. I'm sorry I don't have them written in here, but I have pictures, and I have the memory...but I'm going to try to write down as much of those memories down now.

So now, let's go back to kind of where we left off. We had Christmas in California w/ halmuni, halabugi, samchoon, wehsumo, and kayson. New Years Eve 2011, we woke you up during the countdown to 2012 and took pictures with you! You were so tired and wanted nothing to do with the excitement...hehe. But you were a good sport and stayed up for a few minutes with your parents and Nancy emo and Eric samchoon. And in March 2012, You turned 1! We had your birthday at a korean restaurant called Bann and 할머니, 할아버지, nana fran, nonni, puppa, di di, mike, and all your 이모's and unkies came out to celebrate! For the 돌잡이, you picked the stethoscope. But don't let that tie you down! I want you to be and believe that you can be anything you want to be. :)

Actually, before your first birthday, you took your first steps. You took a few steps towards me and a few steps towards daddy, but then you kind of stopped. Then about a week after your first birthday, you started taking multiple steps. Very soon after, you were practically running. I feel like you've been waiting for that moment, frustrated that you couldn't walk before then. You really could move. You also started eating more solid foods...less blended meals, and more finger foods. Of course now, you eat everything we eat. You love 국밥 and 김.

Your first word was balloon, and that was in January, before your first birthday. It was my birthday, and I had a balloon. We told you it was a balloon, and then you said "ba-oon"! We were amazed! After that, there weren't many more words for awhile. You called everything da-da for a long time. Everything and Everyone was "da-da". Daddy was happy that at least you called him by the right name. :) You slowly started accumulating more and more words. You were also running around and going on big slides. Recognizing the pattern in books and knowing what comes next and saying it aloud (btw, your favorites have been "elmo says" "little blue truck" "there's an alligator under my bed" "carrot seed" "ballerina" by peter sis - you do the moves). Now you say so many words! You just repeat everything we say. I have to start to be careful of the "umm"s that I use because you say "umm" now! You love saying "open it!" and "did it!" among other phrases. When you or someone burps, you say "bup!" and when you or someone farts, you say "poo poo". hehe. You also love to sing. You sing the alphabet song, so that's one of your favorite songs. Your other favorite songs are "I like to eat apples and bananas", "open and shut", "곰 새마리". You also LOVE to dance. You move to every song that plays...at home, in the grocery store, out and about. You also do some great ballet moves while reading the Ballerina book...and you shout "ballet!" while you do the move. You have also started counting to 10. When you're playing with the animal puzzle, you count out each animal.

In August 2012, Joy went to Grenada for a month, so I took you to California for 2 weeks. We hung out with halmuni. We went to the beach. We went out to eat. We went to the park. We went to the aquarium with Kayson. We also went to this place you love called Pretend City. We had a lot of fun in California. Then, when we got back to New York, back to daddy, we left for our first vacation abroad together. We went to Atlantis! You loved swimming, playing in the sand, running around. You were kind of too little to play of things, but you had fun with 엄마 and daddy. :)

I'm sure I'm missing some other milestones in this post, but hopefully what I've typed out so far is good for now. I love you so much Nara. You are the greatest gift that God has given me, and I thank Him for you.

Let's make 2013 an awesome year!!

Lots of Love,
엄마

california trip update

dear 나라,

we got back from california 2 days ago, and you were absolutely wonderful. the plane ride there went so smoothly. luckily, they had an empty seat next to us, so we brought your carseat on so that you could sleep comfortably in it on the plane. you slept 2 hours on the plane, woke up and played for 2 hours, slept for another hour, and woke up just as the plane was descending. there was no crying...you were an absolute doll! when we landed, we went to 할머니 and 하라버지's house and ate and hung out. 할머니 got you this toy that's like a walker with all these lights that light up. you loved it! then your aunt doris and cousin kayson came over. we all hung out, and you stayed awake for a VERY long time. i tried to get you to go to sleep around 5pm--it had been about 6 hours that you were up for--but you weren't having it. eventually, you slept at around 6:30 but then woke up again around 10pm. it must have been tough adjusting to the change in time. i wasn't sure how your internal clock was taking it. you woke up around 6am and played a bit and then took a nap. you woke up just in time to say bye-bye to mommy & daddy. we were leaving to go to cabo for flora & duke's wedding. we called home often from mexico, and 할머니 said everything was great! she had you sleep in the bed with her. as much as i love that you were warm and cozy next to 할머니, i hoped that you wouldn't get too used to it because you were going to be back in your crib here in nyc. while we were in cabo, your parents went skydiving! it seems crazy, but we knew it would be safe. if we felt otherwise for even a moment, we wouldn't have jumped out of that plane. we love you too much! we were in cabo from friday to monday, and we got back to california on monday evening. our plane was half an hour delayed, but what made it worse was that there were two accidents on the freeway on the way home that kept us on the road longer. 할머니 called to say that you woke up and seemed very awake, so we were hoping to see you when we got home. we got home to find out that you were back asleep. i went into 할머니's room to see you sleeping in the dark, and my butt accidentally hit the light switch and you woke right up! it really wasn't intentional, maybe it was subconsciously. anyway, you were up and smiley, so i grabbed you and we went to say hi to daddy. shortly after, i put you back down in the pack & play. that night, we slept in 할머니's bed. 할머니, you and me. :) the next day, we flew back to nyc. fortunately, once again, it wasn't a full flight and we were able to get a seat for you for free. once again, you were so well-behaved on the flight. i hope that when we leave to california in december, it'll be the same! :D
thank you for being the best baby ever!!

i love you!

love,
엄마

from crawling to sitting to pulling yourself up!

dear nara,

my oh my how you change so quickly!
we're leaving to california tomorrow, so i had to run some errands, and you were at home with joy joy when she sent me pictures of you sitting up in the crib and then STANDING in the crib! you were already sitting up on your own, but now you go from laying down to sitting. it's amazing! and the standing! we're going to have to drop the crib lower so that you can't fall out of it. i guess we're going to have to get to that when we get back from our trip. 할머니 and 하라버지 are going to be so happy to see you! and then you're going to meet your cousin kayson too! exciting stuff! packing's all done and now i can sleep for 3 hours before i wake you up, and we head to the airport for your very first plane ride! i know you'll be great! :D

love,
엄마

crawling baby!

dear nara,

you've begun crawling! you crawl like a worm, but i still consider it crawling.
yay!! (maybe i shouldn't be so excited since this means i have to keep my
eyes on you like a hawk!)

http://youtu.be/emEfr5rnXSE

it's so exciting to see how you change day to day, all on your own.

i love you!

love,
umma

mommy & daddy's first trip away

dear nara,

your dad and i went to aruba this past weekend and left you at home with nonni & pup. they were very excited to come down to nyc to take care of you. you cried quite a bit the first day they were here, but i think that's just because you knew i was around, and it was confusing for you to know that i was staying away from you. i think it was easier the following day when we left because you knew that your grandparents were going to be taking care of you. you're a smarty pants!
we got back last night and were so happy to see you. i couldn't wait to get back to have you in my arms.
this past weekend was the first time you had formula, and the plan was to have you take formula for every other feeding, but that didn't happen, so your bum is quite red. i hope it gets better. i don't know if it's a reaction to having so much formula out of nowhere or if you're having a reaction to the specific formula. i think i'm going to take a break from giving you formula for a couple days and then start it back up again slowly. we're going to california in a few weeks, so we have to get you used to formula while mom and dad are in cabo for flora's wedding.

bum bum kisses~

love,
엄마